Episode 7. Destiny rather than coincidence (7)
The front of the bed became slightly distorted, and the light spread and gathered again and again, forming a shape similar to lumped clay.
【You kept mumbling for me to wait! I thought my ears were dropping!】
The lump repeatedly puffed up and shrunk, looking like it was in trouble.
“I was listening as expected.”
【Is that what you can say when you’ve terrorized my mind to such an extent!】
Jeong Hee-seong did not care about the unfair words of the lumpen. Jeong Hee-seong took a few deep breaths and spoke in a trembling voice.
“I have a favor to ask of you.”
The mass that was moving frantically stopped moving at Jeong Hee-seong’s words.
“After a week, please save Dohyun.”
At those words, the lump floating in the air let out a long sigh.
【It’s the same for small humans, and it’s the same for non-small humans. You don’t know how precious your life is.】
Jeong Hee-seong laughed at those words.
That couldn’t have been possible.
I just recently picked up a violin that I hadn’t held in a year.
The heat of that moment was still vivid.
When the lump said he could live, he also envisioned a future with his younger brother.
I also thought that maybe the moment I had been hoping for for a long time, different from the life I had lived so far, might come.
There was no way I wouldn’t have a desire to live.
however.
– I have nothing to lose.
When Dohyeon said that, my heart sank heavily. It was a terrible feeling, every organ in his body being crushed.
What if Do-hyeon just disappears?
‘no.’
Jeong Hee-seong shook his head.
There was no way that was the end for the little boy.
I hope that there comes a moment when that little child holds so many things that he can’t hold them all in his hands and regrets his life.
I wanted to give a ‘proper life’.
“There’s no way your life isn’t worth it. “Even now, I feel like I’m dying to take back what I said.”
Jeong Hee-seong, who said that, actually laughed.
“But I lived a long time. When I’m 28, I’ll probably eat a lot more food. “The little boy has probably never even eaten chicken.”
The lump focused on a human who was not small.
The soul was shining and swaying like a sunset.
The soul, gently undulating like the Milky Way in the universe or a fish in the sea, was so beautiful that even the lump was momentarily deprived of attention.
Although it was only a human soul, it felt like facing the shadow of the sun covering the whole world.
They say that people sometimes feel sad when they see nature that is so beautiful.
The lump seemed to understand the human mind a little.
“I’ve never heard of you going somewhere to have fun. The hospital is her entire world. I’ve never seen my parents come to visit. “You said you were in the same situation as me, so it’s understandable.”
Jeong Hee-seong stopped speaking.
A voice that suppressed emotions came out with difficulty, as if even speaking was painful.
“It’s not okay to die like that.”
Rather than speaking to someone, it was closer to speaking to myself.
【Even if your souls merge, it is not death in the complete sense. In a broader sense, the death of existence means that the soul loses its nature, and you are only mixed, not lost. It’s just a matter of initiative.】
The lump spoke as if to comfort me without realizing it.
As a being that is not involved in the big or small affairs of life, this was an extremely unusual event.
At the same time, as someone who oversees life, it was probably natural.
【Pieces of your life will flow to the little human. It can be said that it is not death, but change.】
Jeong Hee-seong chuckled at those words.
“okay. “It would be quite nice to live with a little boy.”
Not even Transformers. I didn’t know we would merge at this age.
Jeong Hee-seong, who was muttering under his breath, burst into laughter wondering what was so funny.
Jeong Hee-seong stopped laughing and looked directly at the lump with a firmer face than before.
“so. “Can you do me a favor?”
【I feel more comfortable that way. Your soul is so scattered that it’s honestly a bit difficult to fix it.】
“Haha, really? Good, then. “I can ease some of my regrets.”
Jeong Hee-seong, who said that, smiled reassuringly.
Seeing Jeong Hee-seong like that, the lump said impulsively.
【You are not a small human. What is your name?】
“I thought you might know my name.”
【Names are fleeting and very powerful at the same time. Since it has the power to define existence, I cannot know its name carelessly.】
At those words, Jeong Hee-seong was a little confused as to whether he could say his name.
Then I realized that I only had a week left anyway.
Being careful and on guard against something is something you only do when you have time left.
Jeong Hee-seong opened his mouth while thinking self-deprecatingly.
“Jeong Hee-seong, my name.”
Hearing those words, the lump shook violently.
The world held its breath.
I lowered my body and hovered around that small lump.
What Jeong Hee-seong thought was just a strange lump seemed to inflate into something infinitely gigantic.
Even though it was still the size of two of his fists, it felt like the presence had covered him all.
Something filled me and an unknown feeling of fullness took over my body.
The lump said that it was not a god.
Is this what it would feel like to meet God?
【Jeong Hee-seong. I will give you my last gift.】
The voice of the lump penetrated deeper, yes, into my soul, rather than into my head.
Jeong Hee-seong trembled at that shocking sensation.
【For the time you have left, I will stop the time of your soul.】
It was a voice filled with strange power.
The feeling of encountering something that should not be encountered was both extremely ecstatic and terrifying.
Unable to bear the overwhelming pressure, his breathing became labored, and his entire body convulsed.
Just as Jeong Hee-seong’s eyes were about to roll over, the pressure that had filled the hospital room disappeared in an instant.
【then! Enjoy the rest of your life!】
The lump, which returned to its stern voice again, bounced and disappeared without Jeong Hee-seong even having a chance to say anything.
The world has regained its original flow.
Jeong Hee-seong let out the breath he had been holding.
I grabbed the edge of the bed and retched, but nothing came out.
* * *
Do-hyeon came out early in the morning and was lingering in front of the hospital room for a long time.
Nurses saw the young boy repeatedly holding and releasing the doorknob without going inside and tried to talk to him, but Dohyeon kept repeating in a low voice that it was nothing, fearing that the sound would leak inside.
The moment Dohyeon grabs the doorknob once again.
Suddenly-
Dohyeon turned into ice as the door suddenly opened.
Jeong Hee-seong was standing in a awkward posture, looking down at Do-hyeon as if he were dumbfounded.
“I waited for a long time to see when it would come in, but if I left it there, it seemed like it would stay there until the very next day?”
“… Did you know?”
“uh. “Your footsteps are quiet so I can tell right away.”
“yes?”
Isn’t it difficult to tell when footsteps are quiet?
Do-hyeon felt a little strange, but he was not tactful enough to question it now, so he just nodded and agreed.
“Don’t just keep standing around, come in.”
Jeong Hee-seong stepped aside. Do-hyeon looked a little hesitant and hesitated before stepping into the hospital room.
Jeong Hee-seong burst into laughter at Do-hyeon, who looked at Do-hyeon like a child about to be punished.
“If you’re going to be looked at like that, why do you do something so bad?”
“brother. “Are you still very angry?”
“Then you wouldn’t be angry?”
Dohyeon’s spirit died at those words.
Should I go out again?
Jeong Hee-seong, who noticed that Do-hyeon’s eyes were looking toward the door, blocked Do-hyeon.
“If the other person is angry, you need to make them feel better. What if I give up right away and roll my tail?”
“S-sorry.”
Jeong Hee-seong, looking down at Do-hyeon’s small head, took on a confused look for a moment.
‘I also deceived the little boy and acted as I wanted. Actually, I’m the one who needs to ask for forgiveness now.’
As I looked at the little boy who knew nothing and was watching me, all kinds of emotions came flooding back.
When no answer came for a long time, Dohyeon raised his head with a nervous look.
Jeong Hee-seong quickly adjusted his expression before Do-hyeon’s gaze reached him.
Fortunately, Do-hyeon did not notice Jeong Hee-seong.
“Brother, I’m sorry.”
Jeong Hee-seong, who was a little choked up, cleared his throat a couple of times.
Then he spoke in a slightly more relaxed voice than before.
“Don’t try to give up your life so easily from now on. okay?”
I knew I had no right to say this to myself.
Because it was he who took life more lightly than anyone else.
However, when the little boy tried to give up on life, my stomach turned and I couldn’t bear it.
Meanwhile, Dohyeon could not easily answer.
‘It’s not a question of whether I give up or not. My brother heard it yesterday too… . Eventually someone has to die. And that… .’
However, I did not let out the thoughts in my head. He simply nodded his head meekly, like a child who listens well.
Jeong Hee-seong’s cold face softened at Do-hyeon’s reaction.
“After a week, let’s ask again if there is another way. “Maybe there is a way.”
It was a friendly voice as usual. Dohyeon asked back without realizing it.
“What if there isn’t one?”
“If you don’t have it… .”
Jeong Hee-seong smiled with a mischievous face. That was no different from her usual self, so Dohyun blinked at her.
“What do you think about then?”
Those were irresponsible words.
It was also a very light attitude for a match where both of their lives were at stake.
However, Do-hyeon was rather relieved to see Jeong Hee-seong like that. It felt like death, which had felt so close just a moment ago, had become far away.
“Anyway, even if I think about it now, I won’t come to any conclusion. “Then wouldn’t it be better to have fun rather than wasting time and suffering physically and emotionally?”
Do-hyeon’s face brightened little by little, following Jeong Hee-seong’s.
Anyway, death was always by Dohyeon’s side.
I have heard countless times that today is a critical day.
‘Of course, it’s a bit different from the situation back then.’
Death is scary.
The thought that there might not be another day was a fear that chilled my heart.
No matter how much I got used to it, the thing I couldn’t get used to was death.
Dohyeon stretched out his hand. Jeong Hee-seong, who saw Do-hyeon’s hand reaching out for his own, wrapped his hand around it without hesitation.
Warmth spread out from my fingertips.
‘But my brother is by my side.’
At this moment, Do-hyeon realized that even unbearable fear was more bearable than he thought if there was someone holding his hand.
Dohyeon grinned.
* * *
Do-hyeon and Jeong Hee-seong giggled.
Dohyeon recalled the note he left on the bed in his hospital room.
[I’ll take a walk. It might be late.]
Have you found the memo by now or not yet?
When I return, Kaylee and Helia’s nagging will be waiting for me.
‘What do you think?’
If that’s all you need to have fun today, that’s enough.
Do-hyeon was becoming more and more like Jeong Hee-seong’s lack of response.
Do-hyeon and Jeong Hee-seong were wearing everyday clothes, not patient clothes.
I don’t know how he got it, but Do-hyeon’s clothes were clothes that Jeong Hee-seong got. Dohyeon felt good about wearing everyday clothes for the first time in a long time.
The black pants, soft white sweater, and calf-length coat might be just ordinary clothes to some people, but to Dohyun, they were clothes more special than anything else.
Dohyeon’s heart swelled with anticipation.
“Are you that excited?”
“yes! of course!”
Do-hyeon, excited, answered in a bright voice.
This morning.
Do-hyeon and Jeong Hee-seong, who had a dramatic reconciliation, agreed to spend the remaining days to the fullest.
And the first thing they planned was to go to a theater near the hospital and watch a play. Although it was a plan made for Do-hyeon, Jeong Hee-seong was also secretly excited to see a play for the first time in a long time.
Dohyun’s eyes sparkled as he came to the theater for the first time.
People passing by burst out laughing when they saw Dohyeon like that.
Do-hyeon shook hands with Jeong Hee-seong.
“brother! brother! “The theater is huge!”
“I know. “I didn’t know it was such a big place.”
Since I didn’t have a reservation, I had to choose from what I could see.
Even though he had no choice, Dohyeon still had a happy smile on his face.
Holding the ticket in his hand, Dohyun headed toward the concert hall and waved his hand once more.
“brother! brother! “The venue is very small!”
Is it because it is an unpopular performance?
There were few spectator seats and the concert hall was small.
It seemed like he would be disappointed, but Do-hyeon’s eyes were shining as if he was so amazed by it.
Watching Do-hyeon rejoice in every little thing, Jeong Hee-seong smiled softly as if infected by the joy.
Do-hyeon and Jeong Hee-seong sat in the second row from the front.
People who came in sparsely filled the audience seats, and an announcement was made that the performance would start in 10 minutes.
Dohyeon, who was unable to calm his pounding heart and was struggling with his feet not touching the floor, took a deep breath in the darkened concert hall.
The play that Do-hyeon and Jeong Hee-seong saw was the story of a country girl who sets foot in the city for the first time.
The story was ordinary, and the actors’ acting was not bad. Hee-seong Jeong said that it was a play worth watching.
Dohyeon, on the other hand, was helplessly absorbed into the world that unfolded before his eyes.
This performance was quite shocking because it was my first time seeing someone act.
The actors’ faces that change freely, their lively voices, and even the sounds of their breathing that make you feel like you’re on the scene.
Dohyeon’s heart was beating violently.
‘This is a play.’
Until the end of the performance, I kept every scene in my mind as if it were engraved in my mind.
Jeong Hee-seong, who was next to him, held his breath involuntarily at the sight of Do-hyeon staring at the stage without turning his eyes even for a moment.
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